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I am going to be brutally honest; I don’t remember trusting anyone!
My entire life I always felt like someone is going to disappoint me or I am going to disappoint someone. I felt someone is conspiring to break me, expose me and in that process, I’ve set out tests and came up with “solid” ideas to make sure people knew just enough to make them think they know a lot about me. (I know I am not the only one who does this!)
You can’t blame me: I’ve had a wide spread of disappointment and hurt in my life, from my dad in my early years, from not so good friends, from people I trusted.
Especially relationships! Yaks! I made poor choices there! always chose the wrong guy which led to me having serious trust issues! Ever since I got hurt by the father of my child, I made a promise to never trust anyone! (not such a bright idea)
By the time my daughter turned one (1) my trust was “critical but stable” which really affected my relationship with God. I felt like everything was just going wrong!
Not that I stopped being Born Again. I bet reading that sounds weird!
Then one day, I was sleeping, crying for the most parts, but I felt a sense of comfort. I had a kind of knowing in my spirit that this cannot be all that is to life. The condemnation, my past, the people that hurt me.
So, I started working on my trust in God. How did I do that you ask…
THREE THINGS!
1. I went back to the foundation, remembered the first love, somehow, I sort of left/forgot it. (Revelation 2:4). That included writing down things and events that happened when I got born again, had an infill of the Holy Spirit and got baptized. Read my old journals (the English is not so good lol) but reading everything that God said to me. Increased my Faith - Trust
2. Scheduled, yes literally set times aside for studying the Word of God I had to get help or motivation to so. I did, got myself a devotional, I start off with just one (1), Rhapsody of Realities. Which currently I have two (2) ROR and The Voice of Authority.
3. Talking about Jesus Christ. Witnessing. How do I talk about someone I lost Trust in? you would have to follow these things step by step. Because once you remember exactly why you trusted Him in the first place and know more about Him by studying the scriptures you will have something to say about Jesus!
Now my thing is “the more you talk about something (Someone), the more you believe it (in Him)” you should check out my blog post on confidence. That is how I gradually started rebuilding my trust – faith.
In my recent post – Salvation is Free, I mentioned how people are in panic since the start of the COVID -19 pandemic, panic of the virus, the end times, the coming of Jesus.
But how can you keep sane in all this?
“Sometimes God calms the storm…sometimes He the storm rage and calms His child...”- Leslie Gould
I thank God, I could replenish my trust in God before all this panic started, I can only imagine what someone going through what I went through back in 2015 must be going through in all this panic.
Now is the time to Trust God! He loves you and will Never Stop!
Believe me! I know how difficult it can be to trust again after being Hurt so badly! Tell God about it, write about it.
Above all rebuild that trust again, Grow your Faith again.
Don’t let your past experience overshadow God’s grace at work in your life. He wants you to experience life in abundance and you need to believe that to experience that!(John10:10)
No one really have the answers to all this panic. You got to trust God with your life!
“Blessed is the one who perseveres under triall because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love Him”- James 1:12 (NIV)
TAKEAWAY!
What I think we should be concern about right now are 3 things!
1. Leading a Holy Life
2. Being expectant of the Coming of Jesus Christ
3. Witnessing for Jesus – Telling people about him.
Does it mean I don’t have “trust issues “of any sort now? No… I still do, however I've learnt to trust more.
Suggested books: How to Make Your Faith Work by Pastor Chris Oyakhilome D.Sc. D.D.
Rhapsody of Reality by Pastor Chris Oyakhilome D.Sc. D.D.
The Voice of Authority by NS Mpondomse Ph.D
Please feel free to comment or email questions, I would love to hear from you!
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